piss off !!!

ish... i really wana ish myself... am i that weak? just a call from him, i can have such nervous reaction... sien yei, why still nervous? just ignore him... he is just a great liar... shud not trust his words anymore... care no more please... no matter wat he did,what he said, what he bull shiting... he does not care and appreciate u last time, so will he now... y still wana have hope on him? he just does not care u at all... he loves nobody but himself... he is bloody selfish... sien yei, forget him... forget him... don be silly enuf...

missing...

hmm... da moments i think of him are getting less now... hmm... but da miss to him is not reduced... love is really blind huh? hehe... he is bad, irresponsible, lies teller, suck, jerk and even fuck since i was hurted by him again after we broke up. i am so silly to trust da words of a great liar again!!! bloody hell!!! however, i still will think of him, miss him somemore... haha... am i still love him?!! am i ? what makes him so impressed on me?! what is that? i wonder... no one can answer me... even i can't answer myself... haha... i have mentioned less in front of my friends now... coz somethings are better left unsaid... coz some may understand me very well, some are not... but, they are right... i am sure... i used to dependent on my friends too much... when i am alone, i start thinking of nonsense again... hmmm... i am now realising that i have to tackle "him" in my heart on my own... no body else but me... yea... my heart is less pain when his shadow is around in my mind... just feel annoying and moody... maybe will start doin something stupid again... lol... hmm... but, life still go on, i know one day i can look back and see how stupid i am now... hahaha...