a call from him

After coming back from practicing, i was really really tiring... As usual, i was on my lap top and looking for my best frenz to have some chats... msn-ing was ady in my daily routine... coz i found the joy to share my funny stuffs with them... this is wat i wont do when i was be with him... i seldom share my stuffs with frenz but only with him... yet, i always kept the sad thing to myself and never tell anybody include him...
well, when i was chatting with Papa, a very familiar number was calling me... i didn;t believe my eyes... it was his number that i had deleted... after sometimes, i only picked up and answered.
as usual, i was talking to him with soft voice. he was just concerning my current life. of coz i am much more better and delighted with my life without him! lol... but, i just answered him in so so way... these 10 min call felt like taking few hours... this was a totally different feel...
my Papa asked, "how do you feel now?" i still felt sad and heart pain for him...maybe just a little bit... but, it still made me to cry... i felt pathetic over him now... this is his choice... i can't do anything to help him anymore... i used to be a ever ready gal fren to him, since we are far apart all the time, i will do anything for him if i can help and he needed me. we are different actually. in front of him, i just wont do anything that could make him feeling bad. i wont show the true of i to him. i just want to love him, care him, help him and do everything that i can do for him. just for the sake he happy... just hope that he can approach as a better man... but, all of these were in vain...
most of my frenz said, " he is not worthed for me, he doesn't deserve to have me..." until today, all i need was not al the criticsms on him... but a sincere apologise from him and her... anyway, i shud not care this anymore since i chose to walk away from him totally.
i have all my best frenz, mamacita, papacito and my family there for me all the time...they wont leave me alone in the dark. i knew it. this is ady very very enough for me... i love you guys... yea...